Q U I E S C E N C E

nooooooooooooooooooooo
 

 
i am going to cry.
 
SAM.
 
This is the worst feeling in the world.
 
SAMMM.
NO.
STOP IT.
YOUAREPERFECTNODON'TBESADSAMMYDARLINGSAMMYILOVEYOU.
 
@diminutive-dreamer this
is all your fault.
 
Dear God, the pain.
 
anyway
besides the pain consuming my heart like a horrendous beast with teeth like meat cleavers. . .
 
I am reading (and almost done with) the first book of the Bartimaeus trilogy. (rejoice, child @wednesdai)
Yes.
I have a thing for sassy demons
 
or
beautifuldarlingswithdemonbloodinthemwhothinktheyareimpurebutthey'reNOTbecausetheyareperfectshhhbabyit'sokay.
 
Problem?
uh hahaha nope.
 
Anyway.
I also read the Bell Jar. It was okay.
 
I am now slaving over my "hippie poster"- aka a poster I am making that "represents" the '60's anti-war movement.
I am about to draw John Lennon
with beard
which makes him look like Jesus
 

 

you know who else looks like Jesus?
 
Sa- *slaps self*

It looks like the girl leaning against the tree is in front of the bookstore which is the only thing I like about this set.
 
I had a sucky testing experience and I just want to forget about it
 
Reading Northern Lights by Tim O'Brien

Ha ha nope.
Procrastination.
My sets have motifs~
I have to write a US history research paper about the credibility gap in/during (?) the Vietnam War.
And somehow figure out how to answer abstract AP Lit questions so I don't fail the test. (Which is this thursday help)
 
Guys guys
I hope you know I don't smoke.
You shouldn't either ~ *+* +
 
So glad I don't have friends because there's so much drama right now, it's gross.
Ha ha I remember when I used to have to worry about that stuff.
 
I feel weird.
Watery kind of.
 
Smoke is pretty. I wanna sleep.
 
All I have is a crummily written intro. Making up words.
 
Stream of consciousness
 
Books?
All I have is Shadow of the Hegemon (one of the sequels to Ender's Game (which is perfect)) and it sucks. Worst book ever.
Besides Girl, Interrupted.
@diminutive-dreamer you are the only one who gets what the heck I am talking about.
 
I read Girl, Interrupted a while ago and it severely pissed me off.
Shadow of the Hegemon just ruins Ender's Game (so did Ender's Shadow, which also pissed me off).
Can't find books I like~
 
I watched Les Mes.
I liked it but didn't love it.
 
So many people must hate me now :)
 
Infuriating people is my specialty.
 
I failed another practice SAT
 
But it's all good 'cause I drew a lot this weekend and Aya made me the BEST. VIDEO. EVER.
 
THE. BEST.
 
EVER.
 
Words cannot describe how perfect it is.
 
I love looking at all the old crud I drew as a young 'un and just laugh.
 
I found a picture of a kiss that I drew in middle school and it was perfect.
Perfect, I tell you.
:)
 
Ann Hathaway is awesome.

I have no words.
The Bee Movie.
It's everywhere.
I'm getting (angry, horrified )goosebumps just thinking about it.
 
Anyway. I had a terribly vivid nightmare about procrastination.
It ended with me running towards my bed in the dark where a laptop with my unfinished essay was, waiting to be turned in before the deadline was over.
I woke in the exact spot I was rushing for.
It was four in the morning.
And I was like "WHERE'S MY ESSAY I NEED TO FINISH-- wait there's no laptop where's the laptop oh wait it's still Saturday the essay is due Sunday. Oh what that was a dream. What the heck I'm having nightmares about procrastination. So vivid."
I was honestly terrified. *flails*
In other news, the torture known as standardized testing has not yet come to an end.
Forcing people to wake up at eight in the morning should be forbidden.
THE OWL IS DONE. YES.
The Cruicible is like fried chicken. It slowly kills you but it's so good.
Why does the Bee Movie exist? Was it put on this earth to punish mankind?
Just . . . why
 

THE BEES
 

 
THE STUPID BEES
 

 

 

 
LIFT
 

A FUKKING PLANE
 

 
BEES!
 
(When my sisters and I were watching this, I sarcastically suggested that the bees were going to lift the plane. We all scoffed at this.
And then it happened.
We were literally howling from despair and covering our eyes.)

Huzzah!
I am tired. I really really really reallly really REALLY want to sleep and not do homework or take tests. I hate test taking. I'm very bad at it.
Ah ha ha ha I will never get into college with MY grades. Ha ha ha eff you future.
la di da

Hello, hello.
Procrastination.
Ap lit is cruel.

Junior year= torture.
WARNING: Contains irritation and whining. Do not proceed. Turn back now. Enjoy your youth and pay no attention to my bitterness.
 

I can't make up my mind about anything concerning my -bleep-ing future.
Eh.
At school I am overcome with the urge to stab myself in the stomach with a pencil. o __ -
Rawwwghh.
I am being forced to work without pay in art now.
Year-long-substitute-for-my-art-teacher-who-is-busy-raising-her-adorable-baby why must you do this?
My class is "taking a break" from our scratchboard projects (I am drawing a glorious sleepy owl. It is my baby.) to do chalk drawings to 'promote' the school's first ever culture fest (a fest of cultures and enormous quantities of food which is all I care about).
Reasons I am upset about this:
1. I hate chalk.
2. I am working on my owl. My precious owl.
3. This came out of absolutely nowhere.
4. The year long sub always screws with our heads by effing around and plopping some random shitt'y project out of nowhere in front of us and setting a bunch of crapp'y rules and restrictions and it's annoying as hell.
5. She probably excitedly ran to the principal and volunteered the class to do this sh'it without even asking us.
6. I want to work on the freaking owl.
7. It's raining a lot these days and we're working in an open space and the woman just wants to aggravate us. Even if we cover the drawings with tarp of whatever they'll. still. get. smudged. and. ruined.
8. Culture fest is not mandatory. Promoting culture fest should not be mandatory.
 
I believe "stop whining" was on my New Year's resolutions list.
FAILURE.

Wendy run away with me
I know I sound crazy
Don’t you see what you do to me?
I wanna be your lost boy
Your last chance, a better reality
 
Wendy we can get away
I promise if you’re with me, say the word and we’ll find a way
I can be your lost boy, your last chance
Your "everything better" plan
Oh, somewhere in Neverland~
 
This soooonnngggg.
I love it.
I also love this lyric video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXcrxfLWbVk

What I Think The Gay Rights Movement's Slogan Should Be (Note the Use of Capital Letters to Emphasize the Importance of What I am About to Say):
 
WE AREN'T "homo-sapiens" WITHOUT THE "homo".
 
SO CLEVER. SOMEBODY GIVE ME THE NOBEL PEACE PRIZE. I DESERVE IT.
 
I'll let you stew in my genius for a little while longer.
 
Note: I am not attempting to ridicule Gay Rights or offend anyone. It's a joke. Calm yo ti'ts.
 
Aside from being obnoxious I spent the entire day squinting at a tiny screen doing nothing productive while hurting my back and inhaling dust from a corner.
Hm yes delicious. You should be just like me when you grow up.
Sometimes I am stunned by the fact that I am 17 years of age O _ O
In three years I will have survived two decades.
Life is truly amazing.
Humanity is a precious miracle.
- _ -
Shut up little cynic that lives in my head.
Random story time!
I once received 100% on a creative writing assignment in AP Lit (we were supposed to clone Tim O'Brien's writing style from The Things They Carried) in which I ranted about escapism through art. (HOOWWWWWW???)
I never got that paper back so I never got to read the comments. T __ T
I am proud that I didn't talk about my planner as all the other kids did.
She/He carried a binder. A binder filled with crushed dreams, lost hours of sleep, society's expectations. . .
Wait, I'm sorry.
These kids can't write metaphors.
Sarcastic mocking attempt #2
He/She carried a binder. A binder filled with homework assignments, classwork, and notebook paper.
There.
Ew. Geez. Pretentiousness.
I'm sorry. Forgive me. >__<
I'll leave before I say anything else that reveals what a jerk I am.
*fizzles out*

Ahh feeling nostalgic for Bebop.
Gragg I need to stop stealing pictures. I think it was one of my new year's resolutions.
fnjhs failure.
What the heck the day's almost over. Ew. Time.